Lord I pray that you guide me. As Im stepping forward to FINAlly answer my calling. Signing up for the classes in leadership and ministry to use in the mission fields your calling me to… past addictions are flaring up. And Im not strong enough to do this on my own. I need you now more than ever. My marriage everything goes against what you are calling me to do. Im surrounded by sin and hate and so much anger. It drains me. Yet you keep me calm. I want to do right. I want to follow you. I love YOU. Im in limbo. And yet in honesty… I know what I must do about the addictions. I just need to know how. Please. Guide me. I dont want to fall again. We have come to far. You and I. Dont let me lose it.
Thankyou. You bless me in so many ways. Everyday I feel it. I see it. But I live in a world that makes me sick. You made me to love. And Im thankful even though sometimes. It really hurts. Amen