Lord,
I have gone through a very long journey after recovering from my generalized anxiety disorder. But I still do not accept myself. I am not sure if I am in the right direction or not. I over think about myself way too much as well. But I really miss most of my grandparents in heaven because they supported me growing up. But I have no friends, no job and no lover either. I am afraid to be bullied and judged by my high functioning autism if I do decide to work in a job. I feel hopeless at times, but also I am afraid of anyone unless they understand and are friendly to me and I have personal space. I do not know how I can become a major role in our society. I am afraid if I work at a job I am afraid to be humiliated. All I want to do in my life is to help people, be able to manage my own stress caused by my anxiety, have a job where I feel like I fit in and one day, make new friends that don’t live far away from my home area, and in a few years maybe find a lover that would one day accept and support me and it doesn’t matter about what gender the person is to me. Please don’t get mad it’s just how I feel right now.
Please tell my grandparents I love them and miss them a lot.
Amen
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