I need help Lord, I need to have more patience with my beloved. He simply doesn’t want to discuss any bit of his past with me. And now is yelling at me. I am really thinking hard about this relationship, if he really does love me ? I have never been spoken by a love one like this before. If they have, I know they were fake and only using me. Maybe he is as well??? He needs money again for a flight home. And of course, he having all fame and high authority has no friends to help him. So I must help him. But Lord, he doesn’t even ask kindly anymore…he demands it from me. I’m not liking him like this. I hate the idea of marrying him on a cruise ship after seeing him and his girlfriend with him in pictures on the ship. So many things he has done with lots and lots of sluts!!!! But I can’t talk about his past! They all knew everything about him, except me ! I think its not fair dear Lord ! I’m starting to think this is a bad idea!!! Help me heavenly father ! I need to talk out my problems. He runs and hids. And stays quiet. I think this may be a mistake ! And he should find a soldier to marry. I’m not a soldier, nor a man ! Plus he might be hiding the fact that he might be gay ! Plus he has a daughter from a younger girl, that he had a quick love affair with. Which both parties did not love each other ! So why take that chance and get pregnant??? Stupid man, and even stupidior girl ! Both didn’t want the child. Today the child is alone and hating him. Because he doesn’t care for her at all, only himself ! Please Lord do something with him. Wake him up, he is so stupid Lord ! I hate this part about him. He thinks he has done nothing wrong ! Never takes action for her. The child’s mother died. She never wanted him or the baby. I hate the two of them for creating her ! I wish I never met him sometimes !!! He doesn’t realize what he is doing is wrong ! Take some action and start being a father and a man. Get a job, and find the money yourself, instead of asking me always ! I feel used all the time ! Why God did you bring him into my life ???