I am praying for your prayers for my family and myself. My addictions destroyed my life yet God saved and restored my life only for me to fall into sin again. It was and is a vicious cycle that now threatens to destroy the lives of my children. I am in need of discernment and the ability to stop letting my feelings of depression, anxiety allow me to become lazy, weak and act like a victim. My unregulated emotions lead me to addiction every time I repent and try to stop.
My mood swings as well as my behavior when intoxicated or obsessive cause poverty and hardships for my family. My children have to take the brunt of whatever consequences my mistakes create and my response to my guilt and shame is depression and I isolate and they are so lonely when I do. My intoxicated self is mean and verbally abusive. I pray they are released from and protected from any trauma their parents have caused them.
I pray that my three children and I become true and genuine disciples of God so that we can spread the word and help people who need help to live their intended lives, lives that are God’s will.
I also pray for you who praying for me and my children.
I’m Jesus’ mighty name, I pray. Amen.