Need prayers to be strong!!.I just want everything to be ok..and it just isnt.. My partner doesnt believe i love her and i do.. I am gay..im sorry..but i am..i love her and all our boys so very very much..but our world use to be perfect but she just shuts me out of her life and blames me for everything when its just not all me.. I love god and so does she and all our four boys too..three of our boys plus my wife have a serious heart condition long qt type three..and i worry so very much all the time.. Any time could be there time god calls them home..my wifes health has bad and she wont go to the dr for nothing!!it just hurts my soul inside and out!!..i know she and myself stress so much about different very important things but our relationship is definitely very hard on us both..please pray for God to be our director and guide us to make all the right decisions and as i and her will do we will give our lives all to God..and will trust him to make the right decisions for us..either way we do love each other and will always love and support our boys forever and ever..amen..thank you..sorry so long..jlr