I married abusive men in my past. This one I have now is doing his husband duties in a household of men. He disrespects me and uses me for money. He is not respecting our vows as a hetero married couple. He can’t live with me right now. He doesn’t want to work. He talks bad to all of his friends and sits around using marijuana. When he does work he spends his money on him and doesn’t make a sincere effort to pay me back. I get a little government check. I am legally physically disabled. I am in a single person occupant apartment because I need rental history somewhere to get a better place later. I don’t want divorced. It could make me lose some money from social security when he retires. I did a lot of bad things in the past. Please ask God for relief for me. God bless you.