I’m in a year now of hopeless..done all the prayer I can. Separated from a husband of 8 months who pushed me down a flight of stairs, used drugs and has literally emotionally left me drained. And without a home or anything. I still cannot find something i can afford to rent. He wanted to be reconciled which i prayed about and did with the expectation of counseling which he never went to and used that fake reconciliation to get out of charges against him and to regain his home and relationship with his 2 grandchildren and son…another words, he chose his family over his wife. And he still wants me, just not as a wife but to date after the divorce and rebuild from there. His family are not saved or living a Christian life. He did find Jesus in this but i’m not sure how much if any? I live with my parents where i was sexually abused for 8 yrs. To say I’m on the brink of losing my sanity is an understatement. My parents are Christians but my Mother is overbearing and quite nosey. I find it hard to sleep anymore. And i am physically exhausted. I work, and have wonderful female Christian friends for accountability, have rebuilt relationships with my grown children, and I am in church and was re baptized a few months back. But i have no home…and i am desperate to leave the home I am in. It has bad memories and is still a constant source of chaos. I see my abuser daily and as much as I have forgiven and went to counseling myself, it’s very hard on me emotionally. I don’t know how to pray anymore…and i have surrendered all to Jesus. The waiting…the waiting is absolutely killing me.
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