I hope this make sense as I’m not great with my grammar.
I’m not sure what to write because it seems to mixture of things and I’m unsure why I’m feeling this way. Maybe I feel lost and I’m lacking the communication with pray I once had with God not that I forget him he is in my thoughts all the time I know cause I talk to him as he is my father my rock. I’m lacking effort through pray and maybe I’m upset in my life cause I’m single mother who has been single for nearly 8 years single mother who has one child and who always wanted to grow her family and as I aged I get upset cause I haven’t met anyone but I’ve kept to myself as well. I am scared not sure how to approach it anymore and become weary of people and yes I’ve been hurt by people and kept to myself with my son. Sometimes I get upset with my life cause I didn’t expect it to be like this I want to improve but I feel like cause I’m not happy I’m unsure. I’m not blaming God I know it’s my fault of my own doing and I’m understand this is my position in where I am but it hurts. It hurts the idea of not being married and having more children. It would be nice for my son to call someone “dad” out of respect or me to call my husband. Time is going and I’m 40 next year and I still hold on but just unsure. I feel lonely and empty at times I hope someone reads with as I know I am just god daughter but I also know there are many who deserve more than me and maybe I should accept it but I find it difficult and heartbreaking at times. Thank you so much to the one who reads this ! And thank you for your devotion to God himself he is very happy with you.
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