Please my father, have mercy upon me to forgive of all my sins(masturbating and stealing) that I ever commit against your will of which you bear witness to it that I hate of doing it. Due to my incurable chronic venous insufficiency and vascular veins disorderness of my right leg just right of birth till now, being 27 years of age, have never known joy nor to be glad in my life. All families and friends count me down and reject me completely. You really know how I desires to walk and work with you but have no strength even on what to feed and wear are very big challenges, and made me to steal Gh¢20.00 from my Elder when I was hungry. You reproofed my error to me that very day evening service, I was broken deeply in spirit and faith so I sent back the money to where I took it but my was unable to be at peace. In fact , I could not get food to eat that day so I keep on asking myself, why is it that my Father do not want to heal me out of this challenges, but do not get an answer for it. I lost hope and faith in Him up till now shaking due of the pains, discomfortment and hungers. In my painful mood always urges to have sex but do not have a girl friend to lie with so I masturbate then after it, I will be crying and feeling guilty for doing it. For how I wishes to marry and to make my marriage products be according to my Father’s wills and seeing myself in such manners of acts, makes me to hate my life. I have been told by my mates and relatives, especially Daddy that even sheep is worthy and important than I, as for me, I am useless than sheep. Please why should I be living alive and not knowing why been alive for, and as well as what to eat and where to get it from?
I need my Gracious Father to turn to me and should let me know what to do and how to do and live my life as he wills, or else He should kill me to be out of it for I am unable to bear as such. Thank you.
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