My husband and I both grew up in Christian homes. He had porn addiction before meeting me. I waited 7 yrs to marry him to ensure he was free of seeing any images. He promised he would never return to his past sexual sin. We have been married 16 yrs. For the 20 yrs I have known him he would stop a few months before slipping. He has hid it, lied and would neglect me in our bedroom despite me being available. We have 4 kids. I homeschool them. He is a workaholic. He works 7 AM to anywhere between 9 PM or 2 AM at his 8-5 PM job. He works in an office setting so he does not need to cover shifts of other employees or work so late as it is just computer desk work, managing 4 coworkers and data entry / invoicing clients. He holds his job on a pedestal and Jesus and his wife are tied for last. He verbally insults me daily with ugly words and tells me I am worthless and lazy. He is narcissistic personality, has anger problems and cusses at me. I am safe but always sad and lonely.