Dear G-d,
I love you. I give you all the glory in Jesus Christs name for blessing me with life and good health. I am so grateful to have health and basic necessities like love from You, shelter, food, and safety. Dear G-d this is a bit of a tough prayer for me because it is about someone I love who abandoned me when she got married to an abusive man. She allowed him to torment her and me in the process and nearly 40 years later I finally broke free from his cultish abuse and reign over me. In the process, I had to cut off all ties with my mother so as to cut off ties to him. Anything I share with her about my life, she immediately shares with him even though I have asked her so many times to maintain my privacy. Abusers use any information they can get about their victims against them or to hurt them so you can see why this has become so important to me. For 2 years now I have been freed from their abuse and fled their home. I am safe and healthy and in therapy & healing though every now and again I receive toxic, abusive and threatening messages from my mother ( really it is him talking) and putting me down anyway they can for not giving in to their demands that i return home and resume being the scapegoat, target, slave of their family because that is my role in their family- the cinderella. Last my mother sent this to me the morning immediately after my birthday. As wrong as she is for this she is all I have ever had and she is getting older and I pray for her sanity and her health and that she treats me properly like she used to before him. May she see through his abuse and even if she does not I still pray for her wellbeing, health, and safety and may you bless us with peace in our relationship so that there is never any guilt that I must endure even further if she were to leave this land while our relationship remains strained like this. On the one hand I want to give in just to have a relationship with her again but on the other hand I spent my whole life being victimized and tormented by her husband just to try to keep a relationship with her though I know now at 43 what is right and I know my health, wellbeing, and safety come first for once. I was never able to get married or have children, heck I dont even have a boyfriend for petes sake. At the very least I shall have peace and finally know happiness and self love and true love now. Please G-d dont ever make me feel like it is too late or guilty about any of this because you Lord know how much I tried my whole entire life I tried. I love you G-d.