I have been in and out of so many relationships since the age of 15 (my 1st husband) divorced at 17 married again at 20 divorced at 25 married again at 28…. Since my last divorce I’ve had several boyfriends 2 engagements, been pregnant 4 times had 3 children all different fathers. It sounds like I must be a horrible wife or a bad person that nobody wants to stay with. I honestly am very kind and big hearted I have always just wanted a family and someone to love me back. I don’t ask for money or a big house or cars or material thing’s. Just to be faithful and good to me and my kids be faithful and to love me like a husband should love his wife. However I always seem to attract the complete opposite! I fall for the physically and verbally and emotionally abusive, controlling,un-faithful type of man! Im currently living with a man who is not faithful to me and keeps me so confused all the time and I honestly have no place else to go and no job my license are suspended and I have made a mess out of my life. I have so many problems right now I don’t even know where to start to try to do better so I just throw my hands up and give up and take the abuse but I don’t want to and I know it’s not right and I think God has a better life for me but I feel like God is tired of helping me out and I keep doing the same things over again! Please pray that God will help me out of this mess again. I pray but it feels like God is so far away and he’s not really listening to me anymore.